Jealousy

Jealousy 

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I hated the way you treated me 

Hated the way I couldn’t leave

I blamed the way you deceived

Me so that i didn’t see

How miserable I was last spring

All the manipulation and no patience

Gaslighting and second guessing every decision put in front of me

But finally now i’m free

Living my fairytale dream

Complete with the perfect prince charming

So why do i still feel a tiny bit

Bothered at the thought of you with her

Like a kid throwing a fit

Because you took the toy I wasn’t even using anymore

I don’t want you back though

So why is jealousy still here? 

Lurking and whispering in my ear

This jealousy is the guilty secret my brain fears 

That someone will somehow hear 

That jealousy still resides here in this dream come true

chasing me far and near

Just like a game of tag you’re it

Run around for just a little bit 

Never stop to sit and smell the roses

Because like they say every rose has its thorns

And everyone can be pricked

Bleeding ruby rosy red

I broke free from you but it’s like you’re still torturing me

Like a thorn caught in this velvety reality

Jealousy 

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